I know I did my best to be there for you, to be your friend. And it was real. Just because I never met you doesn’t make it less real. Not to me. And the grief I feel now is as real as if I had coffee with you every day. People should never diminish the power of friendships, no matter how they are.
You got me, you understood. I never had to explain or justify me. You accepted what I am, who I am. That’s in itself is a rare gift to have and I’ll always be grateful. One I shall try to take with me. But you had lots of gifts, it’s what made you special. Your strength and courage were the greatest I’d ever known, your warmth and compassion, your genuine kindness and selflessness. I could list more but I won’t.
I know there are countless people missing you, feeling as sad as I am right now. And my heart goes out to them. Truly it does. But I can’t cope with others grief at this time, I selfishly want to think of you for myself for a while. But know you were loved.
The last 2 things you said to me were bittersweet. You said you’d be back.. but you aren’t coming back are you. You told me to always keep smiling.. and I will, you know I will. But not today. Not just now. Just now I’m happy being sad missing you, sad that you won’t be here anymore. Sad that I lost a friend. And I know you’d be telling me that’s okay.
People come into our lives, some stay forever, some don’t. Some sit on the surface, some fall deeper. Our time seemed so short thinking now, although it wasn’t,. Would we have done things differently had we known this would happen? Or was it meant to be this way as a lesson? A reminder that we all crave that human bond and it can be found in the strangest of ways, but once it’s formed it remains unbroken.
I’m glad you came into my life , I just wish you’d stayed a bit longer .